Ricky Lonely Nights acrylic on canvas 2011
Ricky, please do not worry, you will leave behind all of that, all
the lies that he told you and the tears that you cried, the fears of
dark and silence, in a house that was suddenly too big.
Let the black water run, do not plunge in it anymore.
I know also all of that, because all is connected, and any and
each soul is but a fragment of something bigger.
You may still think that all the love you though he gave to you
was a lie, but all of us we just do what we can, and he did what he
could and now... now...
You cannot imagine in this sudden desert that rain is all around
you, it is in you and I would like to heal you with a word just
because if I could heal you I could, maybe, heal myself.
We can maybe fool ourselves but cannot help to hope, cant we?
He was rational, you said, he chose the rational thing to do, and
I see your wounds in your eyes, so firm in their need not to betray
your sorrows... and you talk of children, and you talk of weddings,
and you talk of family and you talk of pain, and the shattering
walking on the brinks of Nothing that night, when you discovered that
you wanted to be alive again, after trailing Death.
No need to say how many sleepless nights, staring at the colorful
dancing lights on your walls, looking at the panda sitting on the
sofa, while saying again "I do not need anybody
Because any new lie just raise all the lies we received before, at
Because any new wound just reach the deepest wound of them all.
You do not need to say anything at all, I thank you for sharing
all of this, and I know that now you feel ashamed and you will never
contact me again, but I want to thank you to let me inhabit your
solitude for a day, and let me help you one step beyond pain, one
step beyond your lonely nights.